Books Books and More Books

Currently Reading: Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella

Currently Listening To: Alice In Wonderland, Disney Version

Currently Feeling: Content

 

If you haven’t already guessed, I am OBESSED with books.

 

Today I hit “Dirt Cheap Books” and picked up 12 new books.

 

What makes it all the more excellent was none of them had the black remainder mark on them – I did find a few I wanted with the remainder mark but I didn’t buy them.

 

I got:

- The One True Ocean by Sarah Beth Martin

- The Good Girl’s Guide To Negotiating by Leslie Whitaker & Elizabeth Austin

- Bill Bryson’s Dictionary For Writers And Editors by Bill Bryson

- The 4 Hour Work Week by Timothy Ferriss

- How To Read A Novel by John Sutherland

- Love Falls by Ester Freud

- Playing With The Grown Ups by Sophie Dahl

- Please Let It Stop by Jacqueline Gold

- Roundabout by Rhiannon Lassiter

- Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella

- My Life In My Hands by Alison Lapper

- Shanghai Tango by Jin Xing

 

I also went to a second hand bookstore and got Writing A to Z edited by Kirk Polking

 

And now off to a gig.

 

♥

Drama Queen

Christmas

 

Currently Reading: Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland

Currently Listening To: Gabriella Cilmi’s “Lessons To Be Learnt” [fave song: Cigarettes And Lies]

Current Mood: Meh

 

So another year almost over.

 

Christmas included catching up with my sister for champagne at the local hotel, and then off to the parent’s house for dinner.

 

My uncle spent a great deal of time bitching about some other relatives turning up late because of a new granddaughter (who had sleeping patterns etc, this girl is not even one year old yet) and I thought that was rather ironic and slightly annoying, his two kids are 3 ½ and 9, and for years our family gatherings have been tailored around their sleeping or feeding or whatnot so I thought it was rather off that he spent all afternoon saying, “I’m sorry but I don’t want my Christmas revolving around…..”

 

My step mother happen to find these bon-bons with little whistles in it, and in the pack you got sheets of music and the idea was to yell out the numbers on the whistles and the person/s who had that number should blow, thus making any number of songs. It was great fun but somehow the music was lost on us.

 

Dinner was a buffet of carefully created meals. I was sitting between my step mother’s aunt and my aunt, my step mother’s brother’s wife. She is awesome and I love her, but I don’t know my step mother’s aunt at all so that was a bit awkward.

 

Otherwise I felt like an idiot when I took my first sip of wine and happened to spill it all over my plate. So that required some skill to carefully mop it up without everyone else knowing.

 

I have a habit of spilling drinks, I was at work one day and lifted up my drink bottle and not knowing the top was only half screwed on I spilt the whole water bottle down my front. That was a good look!

 

Present-wise, year was average to low. We do Kris Kringle in my family with the adults and I asked to be included this year. For some reason unknown to me I received a JB HiFi voucher and all I have to say is, have I ever expressed an interest in JB?! I went out today and brought NCIS Season 4, but still I thought it was odd.

 

We played billiards on my parent’s pool table, where I managed to hit my own ball in the pocket! I purposely shot it hard and on an angle to get it out of the pocket it was so close to being shot into, only to have it rebound perfectly to the opposite side of the table. Everyone was congratulating me on a brilliant shot until I said it was my ball.

 

I was home at about midnight, where I got on web cam with this guy I used to know, he was attempting to convince me to strip or masturbate for him or something. All he got was me taking my corset off, which made no difference as where the cam was positioned all you could see was my upper shoulders and neck, and they were bare anyway because of the corset.

 

Today I slept in until 2pm, where I put on my sheets and doona for washing and watched Lake Placid (aka awesome as crocodile movie). Then I went down to the strip of shops near my house and hired two movies: Juno & Phoebe In Wonderland.

 

Both were awesome and I vote you go and watch them NOW.

 

And now I’m talking to this guy. We went to primary school together, were never friends, went to different high schools and now for him to track me down via facebook and we’ve formed a sort of friendship.

 

During which, I think I’ve fallen for him.

 

Which is bad because he’s such a player and is messing with my head BADLY. I think I’ve come to the conclusion I have to get over it, which I almost am. He made a comment the other night saying that things can be taken many ways and that people take them the way they want to hear. Which made me think. Its very true. He sent me a message about a week ago and I took it one way – which is what I wanted to hear. He obviously didn’t mean it like that, and I read it to my friend who took it another way too.

 

So we talk on a daily basis and I have to accept it and move on.

 

I moved on from my ex by talking to a bunch of other people; I made a comment to a friend that “who said wasn’t good to move on by talking to other people lied! Its great!”

 

So I think I now need to get another love interest, and I can get over him and his games.

 

♥

Drama Queen

Material Day

Currently Reading: Handle With Care - Jodi Picoult (which, for the record, is being released May 2009 - hell yeah bookshop advanced copies!) 

Currently Listening To: Law & Order, SVU

Currently Feeling: Happy

 

It was a good material day! I brought "The Slap", was given Jodi's new one by our Allen & Unwin (love you guys!) rep, and my "Hyde Gate Park News" came in to. I got Alice in Wonderland and Saw 4 on DVD, and two tops and one skirt from Portmans. Overall a quiet expensive but good material day.

 

Emotional day however.....hmmm.

 

One of my best friends works with me and lately she's been acting really weird. I think it's in relation to her ENTER score, which she has not told me. I don’t think I've helped the situation about bragging about my sister's 95+ score. (of which I am SO SO proud). I asked her if she was happy and proud of her score and she said yes. I asked her if she was upset with me and she said no. So I am at a loss.

 

I also attempted to do something nice to another girl at work, she is majorly obsessed with High School Musical and has seen the movie twice. We were talking about it and I asked what she was doing after work and she said nothing, so I said, did you want to go see HSM3 with me? she went, "ha ha no" shut down.

 

Tomorrow should be good, finish early cuz its Friday and my best friend (from above) and I are getting our photo taken with Santa - our annual thing.

 

♥

Drama Queen

 

Today's non dramas....

Currently Reading: about to start "The Slap" by Christos Tsiolkas (Hoorah for book club)

Currently Listening To: Nothing, but downloaded "Poker face" by Lady Gaga this afternoon

Current mood: Content & Full

 

Had a day off today. Was supposed to do a writing course however that got cancel due to lack of numbers *shakes fists*

 

So instead I slept til 1, watched two eps of NCIS, three eps of Hannah Montana and then rushed to get ready to go out for dinner with Guardian Angel.

 

Of course when I got off at the station I went the wrong way down the street and ended up outside a travelling circus. and while waiting 15 minutes for another tram to take me back to her work, I had my second blood nose for the day. I apologise to who ever finds all the bloody tissues at the stop.

 

Dinner was lovely, service was crap.

 

And now to go to bed. Still battling this horrendous cold, and to make matters worst my period came last night.

 

Lovely.

 

Oh, and lets all pray that my friend Jacinta's recent double period/while on the pill was in fact an infection or similar, and not a miss-carriage.....

 

 ♥ 

Drama Queen

 

after the would-be break up.....

just got back from my TAFE girl's house. 

feel soooo sick

damn this cold *shakes fists*

Yesterday's Drama

Currently Listening To: This is how it feels, The Veronicas

Currently Reading: Dear Fatty, Dawn French

Currently Feeling: Sick & "I'll just forget you lived"

I lead a very dramatic life, each day a different drama befalls me.

Yesterday, for example, I went to the cinemas with an old friend. 

We'd been really close a few years back. A few "i love you's" sort of ruined everything, I ignored him for over two years, he left the state, i left the state, and now we're both back and finally caught up. Slightly awkward, but that passed. We got some lunch, brought the movie tickets, and went to a bar to kill the 45 minutes before the movie. 

A few champagnes later and I'm apologizing for the past few years, sorry for ignoring you and making my sister answer your calls saying I'm in the shower. 

He reaches over, takes my hands and says its okay, its in the past, we're fine. He does the whole, who knows what could have happened..... See, he's engaged now. Getting married next week actually. So really, this is no time for regrets. 

We go to the cinema, sit down, start watching the previews and ads. I do notice we're sitting with our arms right next to each other, but whatever. We're mature adults, and besides, he's getting married!

Half way through the movie I'm feeling pretty cold. So I'm rubbing my arms and he leans over and asks if I'm okay. Just cold, I reply. So he being the gentlemen he is, puts his arm around me and I snuggle into him, continuing to watch the movie.

At some point later, he nudges me to sit up. And he kisses me. Again, again, again, again, again.

And he says,

"I'd really like to spent a few hours with you, if you'd let me"

And now he wants to sleep with me. Perfect.

I start having visions of his bride to be storming up the movie aisle.

"I can't let you do that"

"It's not about me, its about you, and if your okay with it"

"I can't let you do that"

"It's not about me-"

"fine, i can't let you let me do that"

We snuggle back down, every time the couple on the screen kisses he pulls me up to kiss. 

Such a romantic. 

It ends, and he basically runs down the aisle, and ducks into the toilets. I am beginning to freak out. 

Last time was bad enough and nothing even happened then!

I quickly call a friend who saw me through last time's dramas, and said i'd call her back later. I sms'd another friend saying i needed to talk to her and that i would call her asap.

He gets out of the toilets, and we power walk towards the escalator. Just before we get on it, he pulls me to the side and apologizes, saying he's sorry and he hopes that i don't think less of him, its just that he's wanted to kiss me for years. And could he have one last for "old time sakes?" 

I don't think so, buddy.

We made strained conversation on the train home, until he gets off, and i quickly call my friends.

Later that night, I sms him: "So....what did today mean? what do you want from me?"

The reply: "today meant....we like each other and there is definitely chemistry there...I don't want anything from you its not like i planned for anything to happen it just happened...to be honest i thought something like that would happen if we caught up and thats why i kept putting it off...i dont know....i just don't want to stuff you around....i'd love to catch up and stay in contact and be friends but we have to be honest and figure out if we can do that."

I say he has to work out what HE wants, he's the one getting married after all.

He says "well i know that now....i stuffed up...i'm sorry....genuinely sorry...i thought we could catch up as just friends but obviously we can't...probably best we don't catch up again....again i'm sorry" 

As you'll all grow to learn, i can't leave things be. 

Several hours later i sms him again: "So much has happened over the years. so much. i'm happy about your decision. i think you made the right choice.  it doesn't hurt any less though. so many thoughts, so much happening. i honestly had those thoughts too but i had hoped....i don't know. i'm going to miss you. so much. good luck next week."

The reply: "yeah i agree with everything you said....been great knowing you you're a wonderful person....sadly and somberly i say goodbye"

So basically he picked his new wife (did i really expect him to leave her?) over me, and i have to move on.

For the past 12 hours or so i've been watching movies and feeling sorrier for myself every time characters kiss.

To top everything off, i've caught my bosses cold and literally feel like crap, as well as emotionally. 

Just as well tonight was the night that i was supposed to celebrate finishing TAFE this year with my TAFE girls. Booze and girly gossip would have been great, if i wasn't feeling this sick.

ARGH

♥ Drama Queen